6 hours of doing nothing but trying to pull together a mediocre Ethos presentation. That's what I have been doing this Friday evening. I haven't been out with friends. I haven't been out on a date with my fiancé. No, I've been in my apartment trying to see my blank computer screen through the tears of defeat that just will not go away.
I wouldn't go as far to say that I'm any sort of genius, but I also know that I'm not dumb either. I typically am able to figure things out and I'm able to pull together pretty awesome presentations if I work hard enough. However, this Ethos presentation I have to give on Wednesday for my Persuasion class is kicking me down. Hard. For whatever reason, my brain just will not grasp whatever concept or objective I need to achieve. If I have no idea what the end goal is or what I'm supposed to be trying to do, how in the world do I even go about picking a topic?! Do you see why I've been trying to pull my hair out? I'm frustrated, discouraged, and defeated, and its only my 2nd week as a Communications major. Great, right?
Normally I'm not the type of pessimistic person who would let one bad night or one bad project discourage me this much. However, when this discouragement comes so soon after making a major change, its hard not to feel like I made a horrible mistake in switching my major. It doesn't really help or encourage me at all when the words from my professor are replaying in my mind as I sit here trying to figure out what to do for this presentation. See, I thought I was being proactive in going to meet with my professor and see if she could offer any guidance. What I didn't anticipate was coming out of there with a feeling of, "you have no business being a communications major if you can't survive this upper level speech course". Apparently, all of my ideas were that of a "lower level". Whatever that means. Is she right? What business do I have being a communications major? Every single person in every single one of my classes started out as Communications majors. They are going to eat me alive on Wednesday. And I won't have anything to say to defend myself because I know more than anyone how in over my head I am.
I can't help but ask myself as the tears of frustration spill over, "what am I doing? I just made a huge mistake." But then I remember how I made this decision to change majors in the first place. God wanted this for me. He was the one who called me to change my course of study. God wanted me to be a Communications major. And you know what else? God doesn't make mistakes. Ever. He never has, and He never ever will. Not with my life, and not with your life. This in over my head feeling is exactly where God needs me to be right now because I literally have no other option but to rely on Him. He wanted me to be exactly where I am right now to teach me that my own self reliance is stupid. The only way He was able to get that through my stubborn head was to put me in a situation where I had absolutely no idea what I was doing, and I had no way out of it. It's in the times when I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing that God teaches me how completely worthless I am on my own, and how trivial my own efforts are when I try to do things without Him.
My hands don't know what to type. My brain doesn't know what to produce. I am literally at a stand still as far as this presentation is concerned. The only thing I can do is wait for God to give me some sort of inspiration. He will give me the words. After all, it was His voice that called me here to this place. So instead of feeling like it was me who made a huge mistake to switch majors, I'm going to wipe away these tears of defeat and frustration and remember that it was God who called me to this, and it is God who will get me through it. Who cares if my professor thinks I have no business as a Communications major. Right now in this very moment, I am right where God wants me, and that's the only place I ever want to be.
At the end of the day, and at the end of my life, I know it won't really matter how this presentation turns out. What will matter is what I learn from this place God has me in at the moment. I suppose it will be a lesson of full reliance and surrender to Him- being comfortable with being uncomfortable. Something I am very not comfortable with.
I guess this is a time to practice what I preached in my previous post by focusing on what really matters. Put my stones in before my sand. And while homework is important for college students to work at, it certainly isn't a stone I would put in my jar before my family or spending time with Mitchell. Therefore, I am making the decision to close my computer and spend some quality time with one of my biggest and most important "stones"- my fiancé who has been nothing but patient, helpful, and unbelievably sweet to me today. He even surprised me with flowers! This Ethos presentation can wait until morning, because in the grand scheme of my life, its just a grain of sand in comparison to what really matters to me. Whatever grain of sand has you worried right now, my prayer for you is that you'll be able to let it go, at least for a little while to focus on the things that are most important to you, and most of all, spending time and energy on the things that are most important to God. That should be our biggest stone of all.
Thanks for taking the time to read my homework related rant. I'll be sure to let you know how the presentation ends of turning out, just in case you're interested. :) Until then.....
Keep calm and listen to some music while you put your stones before sand. ;)
Emily
Saved by grace beautiful mess. Imperfect work in progress. Accepted, secure, significant daughter of God.
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Sunday, August 31, 2014
Stones before Sand
Blog Renamed!
For those of you who are leery of change, I'm sorry for the constant updating of my blog title. However, I firmly believe that as my life changes and goes in different directions, my blog posts are also going to change. This "Stones before Sand" Title may not be all that obvious or appealing, but I promise there is a point to it! For one thing, it is my new life motto, so every time I visit my blog to write new posts, I will be reminded of this motto. Visit my Stone Before Sand page and I can further explain this new motto and blog title. Hopefully after reading my explanation, the peculiar title will make more sense!
Home
At the beginning of the month, Mitchell and I made a trip home to Minnesota to spend a couple weeks with my family. It was a MUCH NEEDED break from the craziness of summer! I absolutely love long trips with Mitchell because it gives us time to talk, and talk, and talk and talk! We had 16+ hours to do nothing but just be together.
There was so much going on during the couple weeks we were home! Check it all out below!!
Alicia/Chandler's Wedding
My friends from high school, Chandler and Alicia, got MARRIED on August 2nd. Alicia and I were close during our cheerleading days and Chandler is one of the nicest guys I have ever met! I'M SO HAPPY for them! They were high school sweethearts and it was so nice to be there on their big day! CONGRATS Alicia and Chandler!
Engagement Party
My Godmother Kathy, Auntie Barb, and Auntie Betty and their families, all came together and threw Mitchell and I an Engagement party! We are so grateful they decided to do this for us. It was so amazing to see everyone and for Mitchell to get to meet the rest of the family. We had so much fun!!!! We love you all!! Thank you so much for celebrating with us! For an update, check out our wedding website!
Engagement pictures
We are so very happy with the way our Engagement pictures turned out. Scott from Lemar Photography did a great job of capturing some awesome shots! In addition to our engagement pictures, Matthew also took some senior picture shots. I can't believe my baby brother is already a senior. WHEN IN THE WORLD DID THAT HAPPEN?!!! I'm so gosh darn proud of him and I love my little brother like crazy!
Registering for Gifts
Mitchell's favorite wedding activity by far was registering for gifts....he fantasized about how much fun he was going to have with the scanning gun!! Me, I'm so glad he was excited about this task because I really was not expecting him to be so enthused about it. There's one thing I've learned about planning a wedding, and that is that the groom typically doesn't get excited about too many of the details, so when they get excited about something, let them run with it! So....that's what I did. ;)
I had so much fun beforehand reading all of my wedding planning books and seeing what I needed to register for and what I didn't really need. It was amazing being able to imagine and dream about our future life together. What did we want our kitchen to look like? What colors did we want our master bedroom to be? It was so exciting to think about and dream about our first home together! I can't wait to be MRS. STEELE!!! 264 DAYS!!!!
Richman's Lake with Emma
I'm so very glad that Mitchell was finally able to meet our precious little flower girl Emma Lee Gavin. Emma and her mom Mary came to John and Marcia's lake with us for the weekend. We had a blast hanging out and our little flower girl.....WHAT A HOOT!!! She is full of spunk and sass and we just love her oodles and oodles. That weekend, Emma was having trouble distinguishing between "I don't know" and "I don't care", so every time she meant to say, "I don't know", she'd say "I don't care!" The perfect example was when I asked her, "Emma who is this (pointing to Mitchell)?" and she says boldly, "I DON'T CARE!" Oh the cuteness. Probably the best part was Emma telling her Papa John, "I'm going to tell on you!" when he told her it was time for bed. She stormed inside, but then a couple minutes later, Emma came outside to announce, "I'm BAAACK! See I TOLD YOU!" I think it was safe to say that her Papa John was surprised at his 2 year old granddaughter's burst of sass! It was thoroughly entertaining for the rest of us. :)
Robin Williams
On a more serious note, August 11th was a sad day for the whole world I think. Robin Williams tragically passed away. Even though I obviously didn't know him personally, it was heartbreaking to know that he was struggling with depression on such a deep level. He could've been saved. I've personally battled with depression, so my heart is heavy for anyone struggling with it. I could devote a whole entire post to this very subject, oh wait, I already did! If you want to hear more about my story and my thoughts on his passing, check out my previous post: Depression: Starting the Conversation.
New Semester!
The night before Mitchell and I were leaving to head back to Nashville, I had a little mini meltdown at home. I thought I had gotten passed the whole homesick, bawling before I leave home every time thing, but for some reason, this time I was so so sad to leave! I was no nervous about starting classes and being in a completely new major, I felt sick to my stomach. I honestly didn't even want to come back- I told my mom that I wanted to just stay at home and plan Mitchell and I's wedding full-time. Sadly, that wouldn't help me make it to graduation. I eventually sucked it up but I was scared to death. I had no idea what this new major was going to be like, and I'd be lying if I wasn't questioning my decision to change.
Less than 3 weeks later.....I have now been a Communications major for 2 weeks and so far, I'm LOVING it. It really is perfect for me, and I feel like I really fit in more in this field of study. I'm fascinated every day by words and how people interact and communicate. There is a little bit of a learning curve just because most people have been Comm majors from the very beginning. I'm working hard to close that gap and I'm learning so much every single day. Time will tell for sure, but for now, I'm very happy with my decision to switch majors! I'm so happy God led me to that decision. It's definitely been a blessing so far!
This semester is very different from the last 2 semester have been for Mitchell and I in that our days are spent completely apart. We were spoiled the last 2 semesters. We were blessed that we were able to have all the same classes and spend most of our days in class together and then our evenings were spent together studying. It's been an adjustment for sure, but I'm thankful that I get to see his smiling face in time for dinner every night! I actually get to ask the question, "how was your day?" because I didn't spend my entire day with him! It makes our time together all that more special for sure!
Back as Interns
After the first couple weeks of August at home, I was able to get back to working at Show Hope! I was SO happy to walk through those doors the first day back at school. I told everyone in the office that it was so nice to have a sense of familiarity in my day to balance out the new major change. I walked in those doors and felt so calm and peaceful. I knew what I was doing there. I'm so glad to be back working with our advocates program and helping out the Comm team again. Plus, there is a whole new set of interns to get to know this semester and they're all awesome! I love being a part of the Show Hope family!!
Mitchell started a brand new internship this semester at Capitol Christian Music Group in Brentwood. I am SO proud of him for this internship. He always wanted to work at Capitol one day and now he is their intern! So far, he is enjoying it! He always comes home with a smile on his face, so that's a good sign, right? :) Plus, he gets to hang around a bunch of Steven Curtis Chapman's gold records all day. Win-win for him!
T.Swift webcast
The moment me, along with millions of other Swifites, have been waiting 2 WHOLE YEARS for finally arrived! Taylor Swift announced her new album 1989!!
YOU GO MAMA!
Okay, now we're getting into the part of this month's post where I will be introducing you to some of my life heroes. One of my biggest heroes is my mama. She is my inspiration on my journey to get healthy and start taking better care of myself! I cannot believe that she has lost 50lbs since this spring! She looks AMAZING!! I was talking to her the other day and I told her that she now only looks WAY thin, but she looks healthier and she looks happier! I am SO SO SO proud of my mama and I'm so happy that she decided to start taking good care of herself! YOU GO MAMA!!
One day when we were back home in Minnesota, I had a meeting with Lori from Lovin'Nutrition. She has me hooked on Herbalife protein shakes! YUM!!! Although I have been drinking them for awhile, I hadn't really taken steps to lose weight or get healthier with them, I just liked to drink them because they tasted good. However, today I had a fitness consultation with Lori where she put me on a plan to help me drop 10lbs by Christmas break. She seems confident that with 2 shakes a day and an exercise plan, I'll reach my goal and feel like a million bucks! Can't wait to see what happens. :) I'm so ready to take charge of my health and get in shape. I'm sick and tired of just talking about it; I'm ready to actually DO something about it and see results for the first time. See, my problem is I always quit before I see any results because I'm impatient with myself. I have to learn patience and perseverance!
I've also started a brand new fitness program called PIYO. 3 days in and I'm loving it!! If it isn't obvious based on the name, its a perfect combination of Pilates and Yoga. It's been kicking my butt but I love it! I was looking for something a bit less "jumpy and punchy", more low impact. This was a perfect find for me!
He is Home
The man who loves me more than anyone in the whole world. Mitchell Dan Steele. This guy goes above and beyond for me every single day, and I know that he would do anything to make me happy. He makes a bad day good, and a good day even better. He was the one there to talk me off a cliff when I thought I had made the biggest mistake of my life by changing my major. He was there through the most challenging and emotionally exhausting spring and summer of my entire life. He has been the rock I so desperately need to keep me grounded and secure. He makes me feel beautiful every single day, and he makes me feel like the most loved girl on the planet. I love him oh so much and he is the best thing that has ever happened to me! Love you Mitchell!
Life in a glass jar
Another one of my role models is someone I've been watching on television since I was literally one year old. She played DJ Tanner on Full House, but now she is a full-time mom, wife, author, actress, producer, and wholesome Christian role model! I read her book "Reshaping it All" and you can check out my thoughts on that on my Books I Love page. In addition to having 2 AWESOME books, she goes around speaking and sharing her INCREDIBLE testimony. I can't even tell you how inspiring she has been in my life. There were many lightbulb moments for me as I read her book and heard her testimony, but one point in particular really stuck out to me and I actually shared what I was inspired to do because of it......
In her book, Candace talks about this concept of life being like a glass jar. In my life, I have stones, which are the things that take up the most time and energy- our priorities, the things that are the most important to me and that we have to make time for every single day. My stones are the things that go into my jar first, meaning they are what you put first before anything else. No matter what else I have going on, I put your stones in first. For example, here are my stones:
I am going to keep this concept of my life in a glass jar on my "Stones before Sand" page as a reminder to myself as well as to ya'll who may need the reminder for time to time to focus your attention on your stones first, and let the sand fill in the cracks. It really will amaze you how things fall into place when you are faithful about putting what's most important first.
30 Day Challenge
For those of you who are leery of change, I'm sorry for the constant updating of my blog title. However, I firmly believe that as my life changes and goes in different directions, my blog posts are also going to change. This "Stones before Sand" Title may not be all that obvious or appealing, but I promise there is a point to it! For one thing, it is my new life motto, so every time I visit my blog to write new posts, I will be reminded of this motto. Visit my Stone Before Sand page and I can further explain this new motto and blog title. Hopefully after reading my explanation, the peculiar title will make more sense!
Home
At the beginning of the month, Mitchell and I made a trip home to Minnesota to spend a couple weeks with my family. It was a MUCH NEEDED break from the craziness of summer! I absolutely love long trips with Mitchell because it gives us time to talk, and talk, and talk and talk! We had 16+ hours to do nothing but just be together.
There was so much going on during the couple weeks we were home! Check it all out below!!
Alicia/Chandler's Wedding
My friends from high school, Chandler and Alicia, got MARRIED on August 2nd. Alicia and I were close during our cheerleading days and Chandler is one of the nicest guys I have ever met! I'M SO HAPPY for them! They were high school sweethearts and it was so nice to be there on their big day! CONGRATS Alicia and Chandler!
Engagement Party
My Godmother Kathy, Auntie Barb, and Auntie Betty and their families, all came together and threw Mitchell and I an Engagement party! We are so grateful they decided to do this for us. It was so amazing to see everyone and for Mitchell to get to meet the rest of the family. We had so much fun!!!! We love you all!! Thank you so much for celebrating with us! For an update, check out our wedding website!
Micayla and Jared had a Photo Booth set up and we all got a little crazy!! ;) Check out the picture evidence!
I've included some teasers below!!! ;)
Engagement pictures
We are so very happy with the way our Engagement pictures turned out. Scott from Lemar Photography did a great job of capturing some awesome shots! In addition to our engagement pictures, Matthew also took some senior picture shots. I can't believe my baby brother is already a senior. WHEN IN THE WORLD DID THAT HAPPEN?!!! I'm so gosh darn proud of him and I love my little brother like crazy!
Check out our WedPics Album to see all of our Engagement pictures.
Here are some of our favorites!!
Mitchell's favorite wedding activity by far was registering for gifts....he fantasized about how much fun he was going to have with the scanning gun!! Me, I'm so glad he was excited about this task because I really was not expecting him to be so enthused about it. There's one thing I've learned about planning a wedding, and that is that the groom typically doesn't get excited about too many of the details, so when they get excited about something, let them run with it! So....that's what I did. ;)
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| As you can tell, Mitchell and I went a little crazy.... |
Richman's Lake with Emma
I'm so very glad that Mitchell was finally able to meet our precious little flower girl Emma Lee Gavin. Emma and her mom Mary came to John and Marcia's lake with us for the weekend. We had a blast hanging out and our little flower girl.....WHAT A HOOT!!! She is full of spunk and sass and we just love her oodles and oodles. That weekend, Emma was having trouble distinguishing between "I don't know" and "I don't care", so every time she meant to say, "I don't know", she'd say "I don't care!" The perfect example was when I asked her, "Emma who is this (pointing to Mitchell)?" and she says boldly, "I DON'T CARE!" Oh the cuteness. Probably the best part was Emma telling her Papa John, "I'm going to tell on you!" when he told her it was time for bed. She stormed inside, but then a couple minutes later, Emma came outside to announce, "I'm BAAACK! See I TOLD YOU!" I think it was safe to say that her Papa John was surprised at his 2 year old granddaughter's burst of sass! It was thoroughly entertaining for the rest of us. :)
Robin Williams
On a more serious note, August 11th was a sad day for the whole world I think. Robin Williams tragically passed away. Even though I obviously didn't know him personally, it was heartbreaking to know that he was struggling with depression on such a deep level. He could've been saved. I've personally battled with depression, so my heart is heavy for anyone struggling with it. I could devote a whole entire post to this very subject, oh wait, I already did! If you want to hear more about my story and my thoughts on his passing, check out my previous post: Depression: Starting the Conversation.
New Semester!
The night before Mitchell and I were leaving to head back to Nashville, I had a little mini meltdown at home. I thought I had gotten passed the whole homesick, bawling before I leave home every time thing, but for some reason, this time I was so so sad to leave! I was no nervous about starting classes and being in a completely new major, I felt sick to my stomach. I honestly didn't even want to come back- I told my mom that I wanted to just stay at home and plan Mitchell and I's wedding full-time. Sadly, that wouldn't help me make it to graduation. I eventually sucked it up but I was scared to death. I had no idea what this new major was going to be like, and I'd be lying if I wasn't questioning my decision to change.
Less than 3 weeks later.....I have now been a Communications major for 2 weeks and so far, I'm LOVING it. It really is perfect for me, and I feel like I really fit in more in this field of study. I'm fascinated every day by words and how people interact and communicate. There is a little bit of a learning curve just because most people have been Comm majors from the very beginning. I'm working hard to close that gap and I'm learning so much every single day. Time will tell for sure, but for now, I'm very happy with my decision to switch majors! I'm so happy God led me to that decision. It's definitely been a blessing so far!
This semester is very different from the last 2 semester have been for Mitchell and I in that our days are spent completely apart. We were spoiled the last 2 semesters. We were blessed that we were able to have all the same classes and spend most of our days in class together and then our evenings were spent together studying. It's been an adjustment for sure, but I'm thankful that I get to see his smiling face in time for dinner every night! I actually get to ask the question, "how was your day?" because I didn't spend my entire day with him! It makes our time together all that more special for sure!
Back as Interns
After the first couple weeks of August at home, I was able to get back to working at Show Hope! I was SO happy to walk through those doors the first day back at school. I told everyone in the office that it was so nice to have a sense of familiarity in my day to balance out the new major change. I walked in those doors and felt so calm and peaceful. I knew what I was doing there. I'm so glad to be back working with our advocates program and helping out the Comm team again. Plus, there is a whole new set of interns to get to know this semester and they're all awesome! I love being a part of the Show Hope family!!
Mitchell started a brand new internship this semester at Capitol Christian Music Group in Brentwood. I am SO proud of him for this internship. He always wanted to work at Capitol one day and now he is their intern! So far, he is enjoying it! He always comes home with a smile on his face, so that's a good sign, right? :) Plus, he gets to hang around a bunch of Steven Curtis Chapman's gold records all day. Win-win for him!
T.Swift webcast
The moment me, along with millions of other Swifites, have been waiting 2 WHOLE YEARS for finally arrived! Taylor Swift announced her new album 1989!!
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| COMING OCTOBER 27th!!! |
People were SO up and arms because this is her first official POP album! Does that really surprise any of us? Not really. It would annoy me to no end when people would say, "she's sooo not country". So what? I really don't care what genre Taylor Swift is just as long as she keeps writing songs. Hate on her all you want but this girl understands and knows how to work the music business. Anyone who wants to disagree with me can take it up with her bank account which indicates she made over $64 million as of June 2014. She must be doing something right. I'm a #Swiftieforlyfe.
Gracie Steele and I watched the live video stream together....well, not technically together but we video chatted while I watched it on the way back to Nashville. I'm telling you....there were MULTIPLE fan girl freak out moments. She had so many surprises! A NEW ALBUM!!! AHHHHH! A NEW SINGLE!!!! AHHHH!!! A NEW MUSIC VIDEO!!! AHHH!!!!! And we all know what's coming next, right? A NEW TOUR!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!
CHECK OUT TAYLOR'S NEW MUSIC VIDEO FOR
"SHAKE IT OFF"
If you decided to crawl under a rock during her WORLDWIDE LIVE VIDEO STREAM, you can watch a recap of all of the secrets she revealed and catch yourself up on this very important information.
YOU GO MAMA!
Okay, now we're getting into the part of this month's post where I will be introducing you to some of my life heroes. One of my biggest heroes is my mama. She is my inspiration on my journey to get healthy and start taking better care of myself! I cannot believe that she has lost 50lbs since this spring! She looks AMAZING!! I was talking to her the other day and I told her that she now only looks WAY thin, but she looks healthier and she looks happier! I am SO SO SO proud of my mama and I'm so happy that she decided to start taking good care of herself! YOU GO MAMA!!
One day when we were back home in Minnesota, I had a meeting with Lori from Lovin'Nutrition. She has me hooked on Herbalife protein shakes! YUM!!! Although I have been drinking them for awhile, I hadn't really taken steps to lose weight or get healthier with them, I just liked to drink them because they tasted good. However, today I had a fitness consultation with Lori where she put me on a plan to help me drop 10lbs by Christmas break. She seems confident that with 2 shakes a day and an exercise plan, I'll reach my goal and feel like a million bucks! Can't wait to see what happens. :) I'm so ready to take charge of my health and get in shape. I'm sick and tired of just talking about it; I'm ready to actually DO something about it and see results for the first time. See, my problem is I always quit before I see any results because I'm impatient with myself. I have to learn patience and perseverance!
This is my absolute FAVORITE flavor: Cookies and Cream....YUMMY!!!
I've also started a brand new fitness program called PIYO. 3 days in and I'm loving it!! If it isn't obvious based on the name, its a perfect combination of Pilates and Yoga. It's been kicking my butt but I love it! I was looking for something a bit less "jumpy and punchy", more low impact. This was a perfect find for me!
He is Home
The man who loves me more than anyone in the whole world. Mitchell Dan Steele. This guy goes above and beyond for me every single day, and I know that he would do anything to make me happy. He makes a bad day good, and a good day even better. He was the one there to talk me off a cliff when I thought I had made the biggest mistake of my life by changing my major. He was there through the most challenging and emotionally exhausting spring and summer of my entire life. He has been the rock I so desperately need to keep me grounded and secure. He makes me feel beautiful every single day, and he makes me feel like the most loved girl on the planet. I love him oh so much and he is the best thing that has ever happened to me! Love you Mitchell!
Life in a glass jar
Another one of my role models is someone I've been watching on television since I was literally one year old. She played DJ Tanner on Full House, but now she is a full-time mom, wife, author, actress, producer, and wholesome Christian role model! I read her book "Reshaping it All" and you can check out my thoughts on that on my Books I Love page. In addition to having 2 AWESOME books, she goes around speaking and sharing her INCREDIBLE testimony. I can't even tell you how inspiring she has been in my life. There were many lightbulb moments for me as I read her book and heard her testimony, but one point in particular really stuck out to me and I actually shared what I was inspired to do because of it......
In her book, Candace talks about this concept of life being like a glass jar. In my life, I have stones, which are the things that take up the most time and energy- our priorities, the things that are the most important to me and that we have to make time for every single day. My stones are the things that go into my jar first, meaning they are what you put first before anything else. No matter what else I have going on, I put your stones in first. For example, here are my stones:
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| My stones include: My daily devotional time, prayer time, Bible study, Mitchell-time together, music, hobbies, daily workouts and healthy eating, work and studying for school, intentionality in my relationships, Bedtime prayers with Mitchell, laughter, and not forgetting to have FUN! |
In addition to stones, we all have "sand" that comes up in life. Sand is all of that stuff that comes up that still takes time and energy, but isn't one of our stones. It isn't life or death. It isn't a big priority, or at least it shouldn't be. Sand is what goes in after all of your stones are in your jar. It's very important that I put your stones in first. Why? I'll tell you....
See, I don't know if any of you are like me but I tend to let the little stuff bother me. Or I make the little stuff a bigger deal than it is. Often times, I fill my "life" or my jar with the sand first. I work tirelessly until my jar is completely full of sand. What's the problem in that? Well, if I fill my entire day, my entire jar, my entire LIFE with sand, I have absolutely no room for the stones. BUT, amazingly enough, if I put the stones in my jar first, the sand falls into place where there is room in between the stones. If my "stones" go in first, the sand will fall into place and my priorities are in order the way they should be. Makes sense doesn't it? This was a lightbulb moment for me! So much so, I wanted a constant reminder of it. I made myself my own little "life jar" that serves as a reminder to put "stones before sand". So far, it's helped me stay focused on what really matters, and the funny thing is, I feel 100x more productive when I put my stones first than when I used to try and fit as much sand in my jar as possible.
I am going to keep this concept of my life in a glass jar on my "Stones before Sand" page as a reminder to myself as well as to ya'll who may need the reminder for time to time to focus your attention on your stones first, and let the sand fill in the cracks. It really will amaze you how things fall into place when you are faithful about putting what's most important first.
30 Day Challenge
In lei of reading a hardcover book for this month's book update, I decided to take Chalene Johnson's 30 Day Challenge. She is quickly becoming another life inspiration. I just finished day 12 and let me just tell you....this is a game changer! Seriously, I was VERY skeptical of this going into it, but I'm honestly so thankful I decided to go ahead with it!
Here is what I've done so far as part of my 30 Day Challenge:
1. Priority Clarity Statement: it may seem cheesy and "self helpy" but I'm serious when I say it has helped so much. Chalene had techniques to dig deep and make my top priority crystal clear so that literally every single thing I do flows from this one statement.
2. PUSH Goal: a push goal is the one goal on your whole entire list of goals that makes the other goals possible. It is the one thing that, hence the name, pushes you to accomplish the rest of your goals. Again, it may seem cheesy until you actually identify it based on your clarity statement, and again, everything you do is in line with your top priority and PUSH goal.
3. Push Goal Promise: I made a push goal promise to my mom, Mitchell, and all my blog readers to keep me accountable. Check out my 30 Day Challenge page to view my promise I made!
4. To-Do Lists: Anyone who knows me knows that I am the to-do list queen! So why is it that I can never ever ever seem to accomplish everything on my to-do list? Well, it turns out I was going about making my lists all wrong. I'm not giving away any secrets though. If you want to find out the answer, Take the 30 Day Challenge!
5. Positive Reminders: My positive reminders come from scripture.
Here is what I've done so far as part of my 30 Day Challenge:
1. Priority Clarity Statement: it may seem cheesy and "self helpy" but I'm serious when I say it has helped so much. Chalene had techniques to dig deep and make my top priority crystal clear so that literally every single thing I do flows from this one statement.
2. PUSH Goal: a push goal is the one goal on your whole entire list of goals that makes the other goals possible. It is the one thing that, hence the name, pushes you to accomplish the rest of your goals. Again, it may seem cheesy until you actually identify it based on your clarity statement, and again, everything you do is in line with your top priority and PUSH goal.
3. Push Goal Promise: I made a push goal promise to my mom, Mitchell, and all my blog readers to keep me accountable. Check out my 30 Day Challenge page to view my promise I made!
4. To-Do Lists: Anyone who knows me knows that I am the to-do list queen! So why is it that I can never ever ever seem to accomplish everything on my to-do list? Well, it turns out I was going about making my lists all wrong. I'm not giving away any secrets though. If you want to find out the answer, Take the 30 Day Challenge!
5. Positive Reminders: My positive reminders come from scripture.
Psalm 139:14
"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful, I know that full well."
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord.
"Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you.
Plans to give you a hope and a future."
Philippians 4:13
"I can do all things through Christ who gives me Strength."
Prayer Focus for this next month:
Well....I think that's all there is for now. August was a pretty busy month, but I have no doubt that September will be as well. That's just kind of the way life goes, isn't it? We're doing our best to focus on the important "stones" in our lives first. I pray that all of you reading this can do the same. Let's remember to always put our "stones before sand...."
-Emily
Intentionality (if that's a word??)
I'm praying to be intentional about investing time and energy into the people in my life. Whether they are near or far, doing better about staying in touch and being intentional in my relationships.
The Ability to Let Go and Let God!
I'm praying for the ability to let go of things I can't control. I need to learn how to trust God more completely, and let Him take care of me. And also, needing to let go of the little things. 21 year olds shouldn't be worried 24/7 365 days of the year. It's okay to let go of worries and cares every once in awhile and have fun!!
I will keep them posted on my Online Prayer Journal. If you have any prayer requests, feel free to contact me!
Well....I think that's all there is for now. August was a pretty busy month, but I have no doubt that September will be as well. That's just kind of the way life goes, isn't it? We're doing our best to focus on the important "stones" in our lives first. I pray that all of you reading this can do the same. Let's remember to always put our "stones before sand...."
Here's my August Playlist!
Switchfoot – This Is Home
Robbie Seay Band – Shine Your Light On Us
Francesca Battistelli – Write Your Story
Chris Cornell – Scream
Hillsong Worship – None But Jesus
Hillsong Worship – At The Cross
Francesca Battistelli – Strangely Dim
Audrey Assad – Restless
Jon Foreman – Your Love Is Strong
Passion – White Flag - feat. Chris Tomlin
Francesca Battistelli – This Is The Stuff
Phillip Phillips – Home
Robbie Seay Band – Shine Your Light On Us
Francesca Battistelli – Write Your Story
Chris Cornell – Scream
Hillsong Worship – None But Jesus
Hillsong Worship – At The Cross
Francesca Battistelli – Strangely Dim
Audrey Assad – Restless
Jon Foreman – Your Love Is Strong
Passion – White Flag - feat. Chris Tomlin
Francesca Battistelli – This Is The Stuff
Phillip Phillips – Home
-Emily
Saturday, July 26, 2014
"Busy" is the new "Fine"
I keep waiting for the time when I won't start every blog post off by saying, "so much has happened this month" but I'm kind of getting the sense that this is what life is like when you're a grown up, I guess you just learn to balance it all and soon, having a lot going on all the time seems normal. Weird. Anyway, let me fill you in on what's been happening since I last gave a life update.
Crazy Summer
Between taking classes, interning full-time, and traveling back home to see family, it’s all been a whirlwind! I can’t believe July is almost over! August will be here before we know it! Mitchell and I were just talking the other night about what we would do if we would’ve spent this summer apart. I honestly don’t know what I would’ve done without him. He has just been the constant support and encouragement I needed to keep going. I am so grateful that he’s been here in Nashville this summer and that we’ve been able to help each other through this crazy season! Now that summer class is over, we have our evenings to just unwind and relax, but our days are still full with our intern schedules.
Mitchell just received word that he will be interning at Capitol Christian Music Group this fall! HIS DREAM COMPANY! I’m so unbelievably proud of him. That is where he wanted to be when I first met him, and God has been SO FAITHFUL in placing him there! I honestly can't wait to see the smile on Mitchell's face every single day when he comes home because I know it'll make him so happy to be there in the fall. :)
I started my work at Show Hope in June and I'm loving it so much! It blesses my heart every single day. I get to work with some of the most amazing and selfless people I've ever known. They treat me like I'm so much more than just an intern but a part of their family. That's what the office feels like-a family. I get to work closely with the advocates, people raising funds and awareness for Show Hope by planning events or projects using their own talents, gifts, and passions. It's so awesome to hear their stories and their reasons for wanting to advocate on Show Hope's behalf. I'm so blessed to be a part of such a wonderful organization. Check out some stories here of our past advocates who have made a HUGE difference in the lives of children waiting for forever families.
This job is blessing my heart on a daily basis. It's like I can go there and feel instantly refreshed! I know how blessed I am to work at a place like that! One thing I've been noticing even more the past few weeks is that the people here genuinely care for one another. It's a type of concern and love that goes beyond just that of typical co-workers. No, they intentionally invest in each other. It doesn't matter to them that I'm just the summer intern. They genuinely care and love me. They take the time to stop by my desk and ask how I'm doing. They'll even ask about Mitchell or ask how my parents are doing back home. I absolutely love who I get to work with every day. They are great people doing big things for the Kingdom.
God has really used my time here at Show Hope to change my heart in ways I never could have imagined. I believe He has used this experience to shape and mold me and has led me on an entirely new career path. I never would have imagined that at the beginning of my time here, God would call me to work in adoption ministry and orphan care for the rest of my life. I'm so grateful that He used my time at Show Hope to reveal this calling to me. It's like He used a little tiny piece of the picture that is my life to reveal more of what He has planned for me. I'm grateful for all that I have been able to learn here.
The original plan was for me to stay at Show Hope for the summer and then continue on with another internship of some sort. However, I have this strong sense that God is not done using me here yet, which is why I am staying on for the fall semester! I feel so honored that the Communications team is willing to keep me on and let me help out. I can't wait to see all that God has in store for me this next semester!
If you haven't noticed already, there is a new page on the blog! One where I list books that I've recently read and LOVED! If you're a book lover like I am, I invite you to follow that page and look for updates as I finish various books. Once I finish, I'll write up a little something and include my thoughts about the book, as well as applications I took away from it. Every month, I will feature a book that I've read for the month and ya'll can see what I've been reading! Maybe you'll even add some books to your own reading list! Check out my Books I Love page to read more about the books I've had my nose buried in recently!
At the beginning of the summer, I began reading a book by Candace Cameron Bure "Reshaping it All". Some of you, no scratch that ALL of you know her. DJ Tanner from Full House is all grown up. Married, 3 kids and an incredible testimony. She has two books already that I recommend all women read.
I could speak for hours about all of the things I'm learning from this book. It's so unlike any other "diet" book or nutrition book. You can't even really call it a diet book because it goes so far beyond just your diet and losing weight. She talks about how we live in a world where we do what we feel like, we eat what we feel like, and we drink what we feel like. We yield to our human desires at every turn. When I want ice cream, I eat ice cream. And I don't just eat one scoop, I eat at least 3 scoops. I don't eat it once a week, I eat it 3-4 times a week. You get what I'm saying? We do what we want regardless of whether or not its good for us.
She has this approach where we train ourselves to, as she says it ,"yield to the spirit" and live with self-control, which is a fruit of the spirit (Galatians 5:22) because we are called to moderation in ALL things, including food. Through her book, I've learned to train myself to eat until I'm satisfied, not full. Instead of eating "all that I can", I simply eat "all that I need". It's a fairly simple concept, but it's helped me out tremendously.
She also says that I don't have to cut out sweets completely! WHAT?! What kind of diet book will ever tell you that?! She says that if I have a sweet tooth (which, Lord knows I have one) that its fine to satisfy it in moderation. So for me, that means that instead of eating a heaping bowl of ice cream, a bite or two of ice cream will satisfy my sweet tooth, if I tell myself that it does. She says that as long as having sweets a couple times a week is part of my "plan", its okay to indulge. She talks about how its important to make a plan and stick to it, rather than relying on my impulses, because my impulses will lead me to make unhealthy choices.
What I love the most about this book is how it challenges me to let God renew the way I think about food and exercise and health. If I think of my body as gift from the Lord and as a temple of the Holy Spirit, I can see that I need to keep it healthy in order to honor God. And that if my workout is really hard one day, I remind myself that "no discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it."(Hebrews 12:11). This book has taught me to be a more disciplined human being and live by the guidance of the spirit instead of my own human desire. In return, I'm living a healthier lifestyle and feeling so much better! I feel as if my life has balance because God has changed the way I see and think because God renews my mind at the start of every day (Romans 12:2).
I'll never forget the night Mitchell and I were sitting in Music Publishing class. Mitchell was paying attention to what Dr. Keen was speaking about, something about copyright administration. The whole time I was thinking to myself, "why am I here?" Or "I don't understand why I'm taking these classes. I don't need copyright admin to help the orphans of the world!" Even though Music Business was the very thing that brought me to Belmont, I had this overwhelming sense that its not what I needed to be spending my time studying. Feeling like it was more than just a random Emily type thought, I knew it had to have come from somewhere other than me. I remember asking God if He was trying to tell me something. After a few moments of sitting silently not feeling or hearing his voice or prompt, I began thinking those thoughts of, "this major isn't going to do anything for me anymore", that's when I had this prompt...."Emily, change it then!" As if God was telling me to quit complaining and do something about it!
Right then I began researching how that would work. Could a senior go into her last year of college with a brand new major? What was I thinking?! Was I insane?! I must be insane!! No senior in their right mind would totally turn their entire academic world upside down this close to graduating. There was no way this was going to work. Right? Wrong! God was already working this out for me and I can say now that I am on my way to graduating with a Communications Degree and Music Business minor. God used my time at Show Hope to show me that I can shine as a part of a communications team. Although there are times I'm a little freaked out about the fact that I'm changing my major with only one year left, I was told by a Communications professor that I will still graduate in time and that it is in fact very doable! God is calming all of my fears, and has comebacks for every argument I come up with. It's almost like I have no reason NOT to follow this anymore. I ran out of excuses not to. Plus, I still have my Music Business minor that I can pull out of my back pocket if I ever need to down the line. At the very least, I'll still be able to understand the music business lingo Mitchell will constantly talk in. ;) A Communications degree leaves so many opportunities open for me, and I know it was a step of obedience I was called to take.
I'm praying for God to release me from the bondage of living in fear that something bad is going to happen. What's the use in worrying about it? Jesus said, "you will have trouble in this world. But take heart, I have overcome the world!" I'm also praying for a deeper sense of discipline with my daily devotional habits as well as my healthy eating and exercise regime.
Awwww I love weddings. Anyone who knows me well knows that. At the end of June, Mitchell and I traveled home for my cousin Micayla's wedding. I can't even begin to tell you how GOOD it was to be home and with family. Mitchell hadn't met the Todd Sipe family yet so it was great that he was finally able to spend some time with them. Micayla and Jared had a BEAUTIFUL wedding, and yes, it did make me all the more excited to be planning my own! And yes, I did get some great ideas that I may steal borrow from Cayla. ;) It was great to see her and Jared finally tie the knot, although I feel as if Jared as been a part of the family for years. I guess it's just "official" now. I'm so glad we were able to make it home for a great family gathering! :)
After a weekend at home for Micayla and Jared's wedding, Mitchell bought us tickets to go see Katy Perry in concert for her Prismatic World Tour. He was looking at tickets all week and finally just decided that it was one of those once in a lifetime experiences (although I'm pretty sure we're going back to see all of Katy Perry's concert tours ever now). All I can say is "WOW". Best concert ever....maybe. I'm still partial to all of T.Swift's shows but it was DANG GOOD! I told Mitchell that I had no idea how much I liked Katy Perry until she came rising up out of the stage and you just couldn't help but scream like a little fan girl! Her show was entertaining, yet her acoustic set was personal and raw. Through the whole thing, she just portrayed herself as this genuine and real person who you could see yourself having a normal conversation with and actually having things in common. I was NOT expecting that from Katy Perry at all, so I was pleasantly surprised when I was able to walk away from that concert with a whole new, deep respect for her as a performer, as a vocalist (gurl can sang!) and as a person. She's the real deal! Here were some of my favorite songs from the concert:
The holiday really starts the night before when we are preparing the boat and our costumes for the boat parade the next morning. This is usually always complete with a late night Walmart run where we act completely ridiculous because we're seriously lacking sleep. Unfortunately, this year I missed the Walmart run, BUT I did receive pictures from it, pictures that I promised never to post as long as I live. Sorry about that. Annie, you're welcome! ;) Then, after heading to bed around 2 or 3am, we get up the next morning and head on over the boat parade! We dominate there and grace everyone with our presence, and then head home to do very Minnesota lake type things, like tube, waterski, and swimming in the middle. It's always a blast! Oh, and we also eat. A LOT! I think I gained like 10 pounds the weekend we were home. At night, we always take the boat over to watch fireworks at Arrowwood Resort.
Anyone who knows anything about the Sipe family knows that we make a HUGE deal about the 4th of July-always have, always will. (To see all of the crazy things we do, check out our Sipe Traditions page) From the boat parade in the morning to fireworks at night and everything in between...it’s a fun time! For the first time in 21 years, I wasn’t going to be able to be a part of the 4th of July festivities. Not gonna lie….that was hard! I didn’t like to think about it because it made me so sad. The night class Mitchell and I were in wasn’t going to allow me to make it home in time because our final exam was at 6pm on July 3rd. I was crushed not only that I wasn’t going to be able to be there, but that Mitchell wouldn’t get to experience the 4th of July the way I did for 21 years. We needed to be there. End of story. To make a very long and emotionally exhausting story short (it included some tears on my part), we were able to take our final and catch a late night flight into Minneapolis. Daddy was waiting to pick us up from the airport and we got back to Alexandria around 2am. Everyone was so surprised to see us! I’m so happy we were able to be there and that Mitchell was able to experience the LOVE BOAT!
That weekend was so nice to be able to spend time with family and hang out on the lake….Minnesota style-something that was completely foreign to Mitchell. It was so cute to see his face the first time we went tubing! He had a blast! It was a great holiday weekend at home that I’m glad we were able to be a part of. YAY AMERICA!!
I love my mama!
What I hadn't realized until I saw her again over the 4th was how much I had missed my mama. She knew better than anyone (besides Mitchell, was who right in the brunt of it with me) how much this summer had taken a toll on me. All a girl really needs sometimes is for her mom to tell her that everything will be okay, that she loves you, and she sees how hard you try to be a good person chasing after God. I'm so happy that my mom sees that in me and understands my heart to the very core. I love you mama!!!!
"You are a kind, loving child of God and anyone that is important in your life knows that. Your passion for life, your love for God and love for your family is truly a blessing to all of us. When anyone else says or does things to make you feel less than that, it’s NOT your issue :) Keeping God and Mitchell at the center of your life is all you truly need….a close follow up to your dad and I…Matthew and Tyler! ;) and the many other special people in your life."
The week after the 4th, Mitchell and I headed up to PA to surprise Gracie for her birthday! We had been planning this trip for months and we were so excited to see her face when we walked in the house! She had just gotten home from camp and was EXHAUSTED; it took her awhile to even recognize who we were and that we were actually standing in front of her! It was so priceless that smile on her face. I love my little sister Gracie so much. I hope she knows that! She is unlike any other young girl I've ever had the pleasure of knowing, and I mean that in the best way possible! She is so confident in who she is, more confident than I was at her age, and she is so wise (wise beyond her years) and genuine and happy and FUN! She still likes playing Taylor Swift songs with me on full blast and dancing like crazy! But she can also speak about her love for the Lord like she has known Him for 100 years. I have never seen another young girl her age with as big of a heart as Gracie has. Actually, I doubt I have seen another person with as big of a heart as Gracie has. It is unique and it is beautiful. She is a blessing to me and I miss her so much when we're not together. I loved being able to be there on her birthday and I know Mitchell felt the same way.
And who can forget Faith?! The girl is a hoot!! I feel so much joy when I'm around her. So much joy is found in the little things, like putting her to bed at night and hearing her say her prayers and how she says, "Dear God, thank you for....thank you for....thank you for....." She already has such a grateful heart and its something I can learn from her! There is also joy found in the times when she tries to stick an entire GIANT marshmallow in her mouth!
Mitchell just received word that he will be interning at Capitol Christian Music Group this fall! HIS DREAM COMPANY! I’m so unbelievably proud of him. That is where he wanted to be when I first met him, and God has been SO FAITHFUL in placing him there! I honestly can't wait to see the smile on Mitchell's face every single day when he comes home because I know it'll make him so happy to be there in the fall. :)
I have a feeling that life doesn’t intend on slowing down anytime soon for us. I recently shared with my co-workers at weekly prayer that Mitchell and I are continually learning what it really means to be grown up 21-22 year olds living on our own, far far from home. Dealing with family things, car troubles, major life changes, I think God is just giving us a taste of what married life is going to be like! We’re grateful that He is teaching us. I asked them to pray that we would be good learners, and that God would teach us how to lean on each other and Him for support and guidance.
This summer has been a time when I’ve learned what it means to really lean on someone else for support while at the same time, lifting them up because they’re leaning on you! There’s no doubt this summer has just been emotionally and physically demanding on the both of us, but if we can make it through what we’ve gone through this summer, we can make it through anything! :) I don’t know if I’ve done a good enough job in thanking Mitchell for all he has done for me and for us this summer, so I’ll take the time to do it publicly now: THANK YOU MITCHELL!! I LOVE YOU!
I can’t even put into words how emotionally drained I have felt this summer. The Lord has used this season to prepare me for things ahead. As hard as some things have been to navigate and as painful as those lessons have been to learn, I’m grateful for them and I’m sure that I’m stronger than I was before experiencing them.
This summer has been a time when I’ve learned what it means to really lean on someone else for support while at the same time, lifting them up because they’re leaning on you! There’s no doubt this summer has just been emotionally and physically demanding on the both of us, but if we can make it through what we’ve gone through this summer, we can make it through anything! :) I don’t know if I’ve done a good enough job in thanking Mitchell for all he has done for me and for us this summer, so I’ll take the time to do it publicly now: THANK YOU MITCHELL!! I LOVE YOU!
I can’t even put into words how emotionally drained I have felt this summer. The Lord has used this season to prepare me for things ahead. As hard as some things have been to navigate and as painful as those lessons have been to learn, I’m grateful for them and I’m sure that I’m stronger than I was before experiencing them.
I love the passage in Ecclesiastes 3 where it talks about there being a time or a season for everything. This season has really been one I can't even put into words. With the fast paced life that we've been living, along with life circumstances that have been thrown our way, I've definitely learned that there is a time for everything. In this life, we will experience all of the things Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 says. This summer season has been a time where I've cried and then I've laughed. I have been knocked down, but I've gotten back up. I've turned away, and I've embraced. I've been quiet, and I've spoken. I've hated, and I've loved. My prayer is that this next season is one where I can laugh more and experience peace and love that my heart has missed so much this summer. I am praying that God will use this next season to heal and restore and to refresh Mitchell and I as we head into the fall semester.
"For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace."-Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Show Hope
This job is blessing my heart on a daily basis. It's like I can go there and feel instantly refreshed! I know how blessed I am to work at a place like that! One thing I've been noticing even more the past few weeks is that the people here genuinely care for one another. It's a type of concern and love that goes beyond just that of typical co-workers. No, they intentionally invest in each other. It doesn't matter to them that I'm just the summer intern. They genuinely care and love me. They take the time to stop by my desk and ask how I'm doing. They'll even ask about Mitchell or ask how my parents are doing back home. I absolutely love who I get to work with every day. They are great people doing big things for the Kingdom.
God has really used my time here at Show Hope to change my heart in ways I never could have imagined. I believe He has used this experience to shape and mold me and has led me on an entirely new career path. I never would have imagined that at the beginning of my time here, God would call me to work in adoption ministry and orphan care for the rest of my life. I'm so grateful that He used my time at Show Hope to reveal this calling to me. It's like He used a little tiny piece of the picture that is my life to reveal more of what He has planned for me. I'm grateful for all that I have been able to learn here.
The original plan was for me to stay at Show Hope for the summer and then continue on with another internship of some sort. However, I have this strong sense that God is not done using me here yet, which is why I am staying on for the fall semester! I feel so honored that the Communications team is willing to keep me on and let me help out. I can't wait to see all that God has in store for me this next semester!
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New "Books I Love" Page!
At the beginning of the summer, I began reading a book by Candace Cameron Bure "Reshaping it All". Some of you, no scratch that ALL of you know her. DJ Tanner from Full House is all grown up. Married, 3 kids and an incredible testimony. She has two books already that I recommend all women read.
I could speak for hours about all of the things I'm learning from this book. It's so unlike any other "diet" book or nutrition book. You can't even really call it a diet book because it goes so far beyond just your diet and losing weight. She talks about how we live in a world where we do what we feel like, we eat what we feel like, and we drink what we feel like. We yield to our human desires at every turn. When I want ice cream, I eat ice cream. And I don't just eat one scoop, I eat at least 3 scoops. I don't eat it once a week, I eat it 3-4 times a week. You get what I'm saying? We do what we want regardless of whether or not its good for us.
She has this approach where we train ourselves to, as she says it ,"yield to the spirit" and live with self-control, which is a fruit of the spirit (Galatians 5:22) because we are called to moderation in ALL things, including food. Through her book, I've learned to train myself to eat until I'm satisfied, not full. Instead of eating "all that I can", I simply eat "all that I need". It's a fairly simple concept, but it's helped me out tremendously.
She also says that I don't have to cut out sweets completely! WHAT?! What kind of diet book will ever tell you that?! She says that if I have a sweet tooth (which, Lord knows I have one) that its fine to satisfy it in moderation. So for me, that means that instead of eating a heaping bowl of ice cream, a bite or two of ice cream will satisfy my sweet tooth, if I tell myself that it does. She says that as long as having sweets a couple times a week is part of my "plan", its okay to indulge. She talks about how its important to make a plan and stick to it, rather than relying on my impulses, because my impulses will lead me to make unhealthy choices.
What I love the most about this book is how it challenges me to let God renew the way I think about food and exercise and health. If I think of my body as gift from the Lord and as a temple of the Holy Spirit, I can see that I need to keep it healthy in order to honor God. And that if my workout is really hard one day, I remind myself that "no discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it."(Hebrews 12:11). This book has taught me to be a more disciplined human being and live by the guidance of the spirit instead of my own human desire. In return, I'm living a healthier lifestyle and feeling so much better! I feel as if my life has balance because God has changed the way I see and think because God renews my mind at the start of every day (Romans 12:2).
Bottom line is this: a healthy, balanced, disciplined lifestyle is another way for me to Honor God with my life. This book is jammed packed with practical tips to do just that.
CHECK IT OUT! :)
New Major!
Right then I began researching how that would work. Could a senior go into her last year of college with a brand new major? What was I thinking?! Was I insane?! I must be insane!! No senior in their right mind would totally turn their entire academic world upside down this close to graduating. There was no way this was going to work. Right? Wrong! God was already working this out for me and I can say now that I am on my way to graduating with a Communications Degree and Music Business minor. God used my time at Show Hope to show me that I can shine as a part of a communications team. Although there are times I'm a little freaked out about the fact that I'm changing my major with only one year left, I was told by a Communications professor that I will still graduate in time and that it is in fact very doable! God is calming all of my fears, and has comebacks for every argument I come up with. It's almost like I have no reason NOT to follow this anymore. I ran out of excuses not to. Plus, I still have my Music Business minor that I can pull out of my back pocket if I ever need to down the line. At the very least, I'll still be able to understand the music business lingo Mitchell will constantly talk in. ;) A Communications degree leaves so many opportunities open for me, and I know it was a step of obedience I was called to take.
Singing Success
Since moving to Nashville, it's sad to think about how little singing I have been doing. I can't quite explain why. Maybe it's because I didn't have a place where I was connected to sing. Maybe it was because I was extremely intimidated by all the talent around me and felt inferior. Maybe it was a little bit of both. Whatever the reason for it, I haven't been doing nearly as much singing as I used to. For awhile, I told myself I didn't miss it. I was able to go on without it. For some reason though, this summer I've started to really miss it more than ever. I felt guilty that I had gone so long without using a gift God gave me. I had let the fear of not being as good as those around me silence me completely. At the beginning of the summer, I started to realize that it was a waste of a God-given gift. Was I going to keep on waisting it? NO way! So....I decided to sing again. I picked up my guitar for the first time in 10 long months and starting playing. I don't even remember the song I played, I guess the song itself doesn't really matter, just the fact that I was playing and singing again was all that mattered at that time. It felt SO good to be back doing something I had once loved so much. I can't believe I had made it so long without it.
Mitchell's mom had told me once about her desire to learn how to sing a few years ago. She had used a program called Singing Success to teach her techniques to singing well. Since it had been almost a year since I had taken my singing and my music seriously, I started to consider trying a program like this to get my voice back in shape to where it used to be. Thankfully, Mitchell had the entire program on his computer and was able to share it with me so I have 12 CD's full of singing exercises to help me find my voice again. At first, I was intimidated to try it. After all, I knew that I had a voice that was able to stay on pitch, but it wasn't anything extraordinary. I can't help but feel as if this program will help me uncover the extraordinary in my voice. I can't wait to see where it takes me!
My goal for all of this is to find a place where I am able to lead worship again. That is my favorite place to sing, and that is how I believe God wants me to use my voice. I was explaining to Mitchell's mom the other day why exactly it is that I love singing and leading worship. For me, my personal worship experience becomes much deeper and much more intimate with God when I am on that side of worship. When I can be up leading others to encounter God, I feel like I'm getting the most out of my worship experience. It's also a way for me to use a God-given gift for His glory. Using what He originally gave me as a way to give something back to Him. My plan is to do this singing program and work with Mitchell to get my voice where it needs to be to pass an audition. Then from there, I'll keep working and take lessons if I need to maintain and keep improving. Hopefully sometime in the next year I'll be back on stage leading worship again. For now, I'm just so happy to be singing again!! I know this makes my mom extremely happy too, since she was the one I would always lead worship alongside!
There is another new page on my blog! Head on over to my online prayer journal if you want to see what I’ve been praying for this month! Have your own prayer requests? Submit them on my home page contact form. :)
Mitchell's mom had told me once about her desire to learn how to sing a few years ago. She had used a program called Singing Success to teach her techniques to singing well. Since it had been almost a year since I had taken my singing and my music seriously, I started to consider trying a program like this to get my voice back in shape to where it used to be. Thankfully, Mitchell had the entire program on his computer and was able to share it with me so I have 12 CD's full of singing exercises to help me find my voice again. At first, I was intimidated to try it. After all, I knew that I had a voice that was able to stay on pitch, but it wasn't anything extraordinary. I can't help but feel as if this program will help me uncover the extraordinary in my voice. I can't wait to see where it takes me!
My goal for all of this is to find a place where I am able to lead worship again. That is my favorite place to sing, and that is how I believe God wants me to use my voice. I was explaining to Mitchell's mom the other day why exactly it is that I love singing and leading worship. For me, my personal worship experience becomes much deeper and much more intimate with God when I am on that side of worship. When I can be up leading others to encounter God, I feel like I'm getting the most out of my worship experience. It's also a way for me to use a God-given gift for His glory. Using what He originally gave me as a way to give something back to Him. My plan is to do this singing program and work with Mitchell to get my voice where it needs to be to pass an audition. Then from there, I'll keep working and take lessons if I need to maintain and keep improving. Hopefully sometime in the next year I'll be back on stage leading worship again. For now, I'm just so happy to be singing again!! I know this makes my mom extremely happy too, since she was the one I would always lead worship alongside!
Online Prayer Journal
July: Fear and Discipline
I'm praying for God to release me from the bondage of living in fear that something bad is going to happen. What's the use in worrying about it? Jesus said, "you will have trouble in this world. But take heart, I have overcome the world!" I'm also praying for a deeper sense of discipline with my daily devotional habits as well as my healthy eating and exercise regime.
Join me in praying for Garrick! Show Hope's monthly Prayer Focus for July!
Micayla and Jared Johnson
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| Madisen, Annie, me, and Katie. |
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| The best family in the world right here! |
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| The Sipe Family is growing so big!! |
Katy Perry
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| Katy Perry sang "Roar" right to me....I can die happy now. |
4th of July
I am so incredibly happy that Mitchell and I were able to make it back home to Minnesota for the 4th of July!
Anyone who knows anything about the Sipe family knows that we make a HUGE deal about the 4th of July-always have, always will. (To see all of the crazy things we do, check out our Sipe Traditions page) From the boat parade in the morning to fireworks at night and everything in between...it’s a fun time! For the first time in 21 years, I wasn’t going to be able to be a part of the 4th of July festivities. Not gonna lie….that was hard! I didn’t like to think about it because it made me so sad. The night class Mitchell and I were in wasn’t going to allow me to make it home in time because our final exam was at 6pm on July 3rd. I was crushed not only that I wasn’t going to be able to be there, but that Mitchell wouldn’t get to experience the 4th of July the way I did for 21 years. We needed to be there. End of story. To make a very long and emotionally exhausting story short (it included some tears on my part), we were able to take our final and catch a late night flight into Minneapolis. Daddy was waiting to pick us up from the airport and we got back to Alexandria around 2am. Everyone was so surprised to see us! I’m so happy we were able to be there and that Mitchell was able to experience the LOVE BOAT!
That weekend was so nice to be able to spend time with family and hang out on the lake….Minnesota style-something that was completely foreign to Mitchell. It was so cute to see his face the first time we went tubing! He had a blast! It was a great holiday weekend at home that I’m glad we were able to be a part of. YAY AMERICA!!
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| We won this year! |
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| Lots of laughter on the Love Boat. |
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| Ice cream scoopers....most important job! |
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| Serving up love one scoop at a time! |
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| Family bike ride! |
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| Family stroll in the park! |
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| Fireworks! |
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| A weekend full of yard game competitions. :) |
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| Mitchell tubing! |
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| I just love Carmen and Matthew's face! |
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| Mitchell and his fancy tube jumping trick! |
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| Wahoooo look! No hands!!! |
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| Carmen and Matthew. |
I love my mama!
What I hadn't realized until I saw her again over the 4th was how much I had missed my mama. She knew better than anyone (besides Mitchell, was who right in the brunt of it with me) how much this summer had taken a toll on me. All a girl really needs sometimes is for her mom to tell her that everything will be okay, that she loves you, and she sees how hard you try to be a good person chasing after God. I'm so happy that my mom sees that in me and understands my heart to the very core. I love you mama!!!!
"You are a kind, loving child of God and anyone that is important in your life knows that. Your passion for life, your love for God and love for your family is truly a blessing to all of us. When anyone else says or does things to make you feel less than that, it’s NOT your issue :) Keeping God and Mitchell at the center of your life is all you truly need….a close follow up to your dad and I…Matthew and Tyler! ;) and the many other special people in your life."
Trip to PA
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| FroYo with the birthday girl!! YUM!! |
Prayer Partners for Show Hope
This summer, Mitchell and I started another advocacy project for Show Hope. One in which we bought bracelets to sell that say, "Hope" on them. All proceeds from sales will be donated to Show Hope. When you purchase a bracelet, we enroll you in Show Hope's monthly prayer focus updates! Each month you'll receive a new child to pray for as well as other Show Hope initiatives under prayer. We have already seen a community of Prayer Partners begin! If you're interested in learning more, check out my Show Hope Advocacy page.
August Trip Home
In a few short days, Mitchell and I are headed home for 2 weeks of much needed family time. Actually, it's one of our big trips home to wedding plan! We have a whole huge list of stuff we need to accomplish. I'll be updating our website and our wedding blog with all of the updates! Be sure to check that out! Before we head home, we're going to meet up with our best friend Jared, who has been interning in Orlando all summer! We've missed that crazy kid so much!
Water Park Adventures!
Today Mitchell took me to Nashville Shores! This AMAZING water park on the lake here in Nashville. It was so fun! I told Mitchell, "our lives have gotten really really heavy lately! We needed something to make us feel like kids again." This day was perfect. It really was and we had SO much fun!
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| Water park on the lake.....best of both worlds! |
I must go now because my baby is picking me up soon for date night! He said "We're going to a restaurant, bar, and the movie theatre all without leaving your apartment!" So....I guess that means date night in tonight. It really sounds perfect! :)
Thanks for checking in! Until next time,
Keep Calm and Listen to Music!
-Emily
Hillsong Worship – None But Jesus
Hillsong United – Hosanna
Hillsong Worship – From The Inside Out
Hillsong Worship – At The Cross
Hillsong Worship – Mighty To Save
Elevation Worship – Only King Forever
Elevation Worship – Give Me Faith
Phil Wickham – This Is Amazing Grace
Hillsong United – Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)
Hillsong United – Like an Avalanche
Hillsong United – Hosanna
Hillsong Worship – From The Inside Out
Hillsong Worship – At The Cross
Hillsong Worship – Mighty To Save
Elevation Worship – Only King Forever
Elevation Worship – Give Me Faith
Phil Wickham – This Is Amazing Grace
Hillsong United – Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)
Hillsong United – Like an Avalanche
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